Tuesday, January 27, 2009


So anyone that knows me knows how much I hate change...which is not very good since life seems to change all the time! I have been trying not to think too far in the future; at this point only thinking about the surgery. However, every now and then it dawns on me that my life has been turned completely upside down! Nights are usually hardest for me, the kids go to bed and I am stuck in the room with them and I start thinking...that is never a good thing!

Being in this house is both wonderful and scary, many of the parents have been going though situations like us for many years...and I can't help but wonder if we will be going through this for many years. There are no intact families here other than ours, all the other families here have the sick child and one parent here with the siblings and other parent home. I know that if this goes on for too long that will be our case as well and it breaks my heart to think of having to leave Adrian. I feel so bad that he is being affected by this, but at the same time I want to be able to give Sammy what she needs as well. Oh well, I guess time will tell and life is all about the journey not the destination. I need to remember that!

Anyway, we had a good day today, we ventured to Boston in the car with no map and no idea how to get around...that was interesting, but we didn't get too lost! We are looking forward to snow in the city tomorrow, we just hope that everyone that is travelling down for Sammy's surgery makes it here safely. Oh another change I forgot, Sammy suddenly started calling me "Mom" instead of "Mommy" and she says it with and attitude...what is up with that and why would my cute little girl now start calling me "Mom" with an attitude! :) I guess just another change to get used to!


  1. Oh how Princess Samantha is growing up with the whole "Mom" thing. Connor started doing that not too long ago. So I know exactly what you are talking about! In regards to your little budoopeedoop, he will understand one day everything your family is going through. I recently realized that if you take life one day at a time, change won't happen so fast. Thinking of you guys often!

  2. Hi Guys,
    Live in the moment thats what we are doing.
    Remember you cant control the situation but you can control how the situation controls you. You
    have our love and support always aiways always.
    Amanda and Zach Sammy could be calling you a lot worse.Hang on its just begun.

    We Love You
    Mom and Dad

  3. Hi Amanda,
    I'm thinking of you every day and sending prayers your way. My fingers are crossed that the tumor is not cancerous and that everything goes the best it can go for the surgery.
    Think positive and stay strong.

    Brenda Paradis

  4. I agree with your Mom and Dad, she could be calling you worse. You've seen Autumn in action....:) I wish that I could travel down and be with you for the surgery,but I know you will have lots of family with you. I will be there in spirit and will be sending positive energy to Sammy and her team of doctor's all day tomorrow. Yes, your life has been turned upside down, but you now hold the secret to life that most people don't let themselves realize. Life is precious and you need to savor everyday you have with the people that you love. You are a strong family and will get through this. Love you all:)

  5. Amanda and Zach,

    We've been thinking about you all EVERY DAY! We're so in awe of how strong you are in handling all of this! Please know that if there is anything AT ALL we can do, we're available. We'll continue to send all the positive energy and thoughts we have your way...

    Nicole, Josh, Michelle, Dana, Phil, & Keith

  6. Hi Guys,

    Maybe calling you mom is Sammy's way of saying I am independent and strong and will make you proud of me going through all of this like the big girl that she is becoming. Uncle Dave calls me Mother Lee sometimes, not really sure if that is a term of endearment or something else... We all need to learn to live in the moment and make the most of each day. Adrian will be fine - you guys are great parents and have a wonderful family to back you up and help whenever you need us. Oh, and did I mention how wonderful your mom and dad are (Debbie and Dennis) are rock solid and the best. Love will get us through this. I hope that you got to play in the snow for a minute sometime today. It's light and fluffy and fun to just kick and tromp through for the fun of watching it blow all around. Uncle Dave has been out plowing and sanding since early this morning, but called and asked for an update on you guys and said to send you his love. We can't be down there for tomorrow but our thoughts and prayers will be with you all day anxiously awaiting the doctor's good news that the surgery is over and she is doing well. Love to all of you.

    Uncle Dave and Aunt Lee